Sunday, August 21, 2016

Spiritual Transcendence of our relationship


As time moves forward and it is now sixteen months since your murder.  Your never being here physically has reached my full awareness.   I was in shock for months, yet at same time ,in midst of a spiritual journey of connecting with you as much as possible on the spiritual level.  Then you warned me after a year that you would not be with me as much, though always within reach when I needed you.  I thought I was ok with that message from you but it really felt like another stage of loss these past four months.

 I had slipped into some deeper depression but I am ready to move forward , as I know you want me to and focus back on developing our full spiritual relationship.  I need to hold on to my affirmation of, I will always be your Momma and you my Sunshine.  I understand you do not need to be right beside me 24/7 as in the spirit world there is no time and space....Just as God , Jesus, and all our spirit guides and Angels are near, it is not a space or time issue.  You are with me in Soul all the time.

You have taught me so much from Heaven and how our souls are eternal.  I know our souls were connected before this physical life and will be eternally.  I just miss you every single day and that will never go away.

 I love you to my core and I praise God that you have connected with me to allow me the comfort of knowing that although I do miss you physically that we are eternally connected by our souls.

Eternally Soul family
Love you bunches and bunches!!!!

Sunday, February 21, 2016

The Letter to Cassandra

This is a letter that my Grief and loss counselor had me write to Cassandra on my final week: ( 8 weeks total as I did not go till after Holidays came) Keep in mind I had a format that she wanted me to stick to so it is not a freehand letter though I did go off a bit. LOL

Dear Sunshine,

Our relationship has been going through a very difficult, heart breaking transformation that neither you or I saw coming ten months ago.   I want you to know that I am sorry that I could not forsee this tragedy and take precautions ahead of time!!!  I am sorry that I wasn't there to take that bullet myself!!! Your life was robbed from you so suddenly and I am sorry for all your earthly dreams that at 24 years of age now will not be fulfilled.

A part of the healing of this letter is to forgive you ( that thought in it's self held me back from writing this letter for two weeks!) After much thought:   I forgive you for being so good at being organized and efficient, arriving to work on time yet causing you to be at the wrong place at the wrong time!

 I'm proud of you Sunshine,for every detail of who you were here on earth physically and how you remain my sunshine spiritually.  During these past ten month's transformations, since that tragic night April 17,2015 , I have felt your soul every single day.  Your guiding thoughts help me to make decisions. You continue to teach me new things from your spiritual side of life and most of all you have given me resilience knowing you and I will always be connected by our souls.

Thank you Sunshine for the wonderful gifts that you've given me through your life shared here on earth with me.  You gave me the gift of learning boundaries , standing up for myself, that it is ok to not be happy all the time and to have balance, The gift of taking time for self introspect, to not allow fear to take me over and the gift of showing me beyond doubt that although you are gone physically your remain spiritually always!!!

Although I know that the pain will always be here and I will miss you always, I must now say goodbye to the pain of missing you physically so much so that it blocks our full spiritual Transcendence of our soul's relationship to be all it is meant to be.

Love you bunches and bunches through eternity Sunshine,
 Your Momma Always!

Saturday, February 20, 2016

In Honor of Cassandra Cassidy please join LVMPD "LIGHT THE NIGHT" campaign PLUS MORE

LVMPD has a campaign that is titled "LIGHT THE NIGHT", The flyer states a well-lit home and neighborhood is better protected than a home or neighborhood without lighting.  Crime and darkness go hand in hand. 

 It is mostly for homeowners to protect themselves by placing more lighting on their private property.  Auto sensors that turn on the porch lights and surround landscape lights at dusk, motion sensor lights though out their front and back property to alert them someone is out there. It states on the flyer that darkness and crime goes hand in hand.  

Well in honor of Cassandra's memory to make something come from her senseless death that may save other lives:   We have decided to join LVMPD to campaign to "LIGHT THE NIGHT" not only in private properties but in our streets!  I honestly believe with all my heart that if the neighborhood and property where my innocent 24 year old daughter was arriving to work that night on April 17th 2015 was better lit, (no street lights there at all) she may still be with us now! PLEASE JOIN US IN HELPING OTHER FAMILIES NOT GO THROUGH THIS TRAGEDY!!!

Las Vegas is unique in the sense of how we have grown- I have lived her for nearly forty years and I remember how this "town" grew in spurts by people moving out and building custom homes in neighborhoods without any city sidewalks and utilities, like street lights.  These days those rural areas are some of the darkest neighborhoods in the center of the city! Crime is happening in those areas daily.   

Please campaign for our city / county to place street lights on every street where people live in this Greater Las Vegas.  Stand up for our Kids or families and all the innocent lives that don't need to be taken from their loved ones. 

Around our country cities are changing their street lights to LED lights that are brighter and more cost efficient for the city- We have a lot of streets with street lights but they are so dim, you can hardly tell so as we do a sweep to "LIGHT THE NIGHT"  please add to make the overplan to eventually replace all streetlights with LED lights.