Dance in the Rain

Transformation journey Nov. 8, 2012:

Just a morning note to be clear, I'm no longer on a "diet" , I AM TRANSFORMING  my life, living in the ZONE of optimal health spite what may limit certain areas of my life....When there is a mountain before you...choose to stay where at, climb that mountain, find a trail around it , or find God's tunnel through it, What matters is not how but that you find your way to the other side and don't stay idle.  Each obstacle is truly an opportunity  of  journey full of  wisdom , love and growth to new adventures.  Dance in the Rain....that is my motto.

Yes, when I started this blog it was more about the weight and diet, that's why I took that picture but now since my TIA (mini stroke) came in May of 2011 and all the diagnoses thus far, It has become about sticking to living as long as possible and as healthy as possible.

Forgive if I talk about my daily health issues here and express the feelings I may go through of not being at my best and having limits that I am not use to.  I promise as you continue to take this journey with me, you will see how one makes the best of all situations and lives committed to God & finding glory in all things.

Live life to the fullest and open your heart to the blessings surrounding you :)

Good days and bad days are all blessed days!

Today 11/7/12 wasn't such a great day.

 I had terrible dizziness and numbness in brain, face, arm and chest along with pain in left arm.  I didn't get much done as each time I thought I could, I would get dizzy and out of breath. I even needed Chelsea to drive for me to get the errands done that I did do.

All is good though, I am alive, I did not end up in hospital and I am relaxing here in my own comfortable home. I am blessed.  I did have three whole days in a row where I had energy, got a lot done and even exercised on my AB lounger. Haven't felt up to that in months! I believe the cooling temperatures are helping me and it is only going to get better as winter draws nearer.  I am more Thankful this year than any year so far....Even with all the silly illness issues, I am happier and feeling more sure of who I am than ever before.  I stand up for myself these days and do not allow anyone's own BS keep me from a moment of peace.
Be Blessed :)

Getting healthy!!!

November 3rd 2012

That's it, I made a mistake and changed jobs for a few months...I'm a woman , I'm allowed to change my mind aren't I?  Now back to Solutions with my family of friends and co-workers where I can enjoy what I do with all my heart and soul.

I believe I haven't changed one bit from those pictures taken almost two years ago!
 
 My health has been a rollarcoaster with my LDL up to 344,  HDL 44 and Triglycerides at 258.
I haven't had any health insurance and it took me 6 months to get accepted and then get into a Volunteer clinic where I was finally seen by a doctor.   As of a week ago I am back on medication for my Cholestrol, have my COPD meds being mailed to me!!!

I am on a waiting list for OB/GYN for my female issues of cyst on ovaries (non-cancerous) and endometreosis. Eventually I will have my degenerative disk disease in my neck re-evaluated that causes me daily pain and the arthritus has settled into it just as it has on my knees that have been degenerative since my early 30's let alone my Atrial Fibrillation issue that increase my risk of that full stroke.

 I am also on waiting list to see a Neorologist for all the symptoms that mimmic or seem to be MS. A doctor at UMC stated that the white matter on my MRI and my symptoms of numbness and heat sensitifity are signs of possible MS.

MS is a progressive illness that eats away the protective layer over your nerves in your brain and inside your spine. Everyone goes through different symptoms depending on nerves being effected but mine is sever heat sensitivity and on daily basis I go numb in my arms , legs , face and brain.  I can feel fine for months then something triggers it back and I get numb, can't think straight, somedays can't talk correctly, and since I have already had a TIA (mini stroke) in May of 2011, these symptoms can lead to stroke too and so scary if not the MS but I ignore signs of a stroke coming on just becuase I am so use to these symptoms daily.   Summer is over Thank God since MS symptoms are triggered my the heat and that issue has been getting progressivly worse for me ever since summer 2008.  I am not sure I can handle another summer here in Vegas without a diagnoises at least so I can be on treatment of some sort.

This may all seem bad, but trust me there is always someone else worse off.  I don't look at it that way anyways, it just interfers with my level of activity at times but it never interfers with my faith in God or my joy in simply being alive and having each day to fulfill God's will with my life by loving others!!!

Any ways I am done with summer and back on my medications for the Cholestrol so I am motivating myself to get back on my health kick.   I believe that if I start back on my Apple cidar vinegar , it can jump start me back to feeling healthy. I set an alarm on my phone to start back on vitamins and I bought a AB lounger at a yard sale. 

Stay with me and watch me melt back into my old jeans...maybe not my 4's in womens or 7's in JR's but at this time in my life I will be happy with a goal of size 6 woman's and size 9 JR's.

More than a size the main thing I am after is to just feel healthy and energetic again!!!

Here I go again...if first you do not succeed try try try again.....

Ok,I am starting over...just like it is never too late to start your day over it is never too late to start you diet and routine for healthy life!!!

Some of the stress has been removed from my life and I feel I may have better chance of losing these extra pounds that attached  to me these last five years!!!

Doctors Orders

Ok well I'm back!  I went to the doctor on Monday July 2th (finally )for my emergency room visits in May.  He has me on High Cholesterol medicine , seeing a dietitian next Tuesday and I am ordered to do 1hr of cardio exercise four times per week!

Now those orders of the cardio came to me without him getting to know my history of arthritis in knees and hips and chronic bronchitis. He was just taking care of the first symptom that got me to hospital, the tingling and chest pain. I gave him my reports from the ER and he just jumped on the cholesterol. I am having full blood test ran including a thyroid test and he gave me a referral for ob/gyn for the lump in my female region.

In meantime, I agree we need to take care of the Cholesterol so we can then deal with any symptoms remaining.

I decided that I am taking a walk every morning for at least a half an hour, building it up to an hour. I will also start swimming lapse for a half an hour every evening.

In three months time, I expect to FEEL and LOOK much better!

Took a weekend break and had a little fun!

Ok, I have been stuck for the last three weeks , losing and gaining the same three pounds!  I will get back on the health kick tomorrow but this weekend I ate pizza.  LOL   I am still determined though and will not give up.  That's one thing Carol Kirkum does not do until I know I have tried every avenue possible.... Keep praying for me , I need a boost!

4th week... determined to WIN!

Well, It has been tough start, but I've known that or I wouldn't of gotten this out of shape to begin with!  I gained weight and lost it again all week I am currently at 148lbs...that is a total of twelve lbs less than when I started!  I am so needing a strong week of losing another 5lbs to keep me feeling like this is all worth it! I'm not beating myself up though, If I can lose 10 pounds a month instead of the 20 that I wanted, that's ok.  I just need to be at 125-128 by my birthday on July 8th so I can turn 52 and be proud of my shape if nothing else!

It is so hard when I live in constant stress over fear of losing my job any day!  Hard enough living on an income that only pays for my bills alone and all my food comes from my church but when you have the fear of losing your job any day it makes dieting pretty tough! They keep playing games , never giving me proper training from day one , now switching me to new supervisor and stating that they were thinking of putting me on another 90 day????  I took their last four years average and I have either met it or surpassed that average each month I have worked there and that is with their half ass training!!!!  Loved the cruises, love my clients but...........


Seriously I am a hard working single Mom that tries so hard to provide my kids a safe home and it seems as though every time I start feeling secure and seeing a light at end of tunnel....satan throws a pie in my face...well, LOL...I have my Lord Jesus and I will persevere!!!!