Walk MS

Hello friends and family....

I am on a strong fight with the whole MS and I am determined to never stop!     The girls and I are building a team to walk the walk ms held all over the country to help the National MS Society to stomp out MS.   Please join me however you can, donation of money or time by walking with us!  

This winter finds me more energetic and rearing to fight to the end. This walk is held in April and it has given me a new found reason to get into shape and walk daily.  In the spring and summer the temperatures are so hot I find myself bedridden on my days off but I am fighting that and living my life to the fullest these days.

Come join me and my wonderful daughters in our fight!  God bless each of you for being in my life.


http://main.nationalmssociety.org/site/TR/Walk/CALWalkEvents?px=12798264&pg=personal&fr_id=23132

Nevada, Las Vegas - Walk MS 2014: walking4acure2MS - National MS Society

Nevada, Las Vegas - Walk MS 2014: walking4acure2MS - National MS Society

Summer is really already here

With temperatures hitting the 90's , I have to succumb to the notion that Summer is here!  I had thought I would simply change my schedule to nights and get through without these MS symptoms flaring up but that didn't work.   I am a full blown day person and trying to work nights just made my symptoms flare even in cooler weather due to the poor sleep my body would get.

 I am learning the things I need most beyond my Lord is rest, coolness and no stress.  So I head into summer sleeping nights and then dressing in clothing that allows my body the most coolness (long loose skirts and tank tops mostly and in as much cotton as possible).  I pay attention to things that stress me out and I try to avoid or simply not allow them to stress me out..LOL

Sometimes the four 12 hour shifts put me under and I have to limit to only three days of work but then the lack of money stresses me out so trying to find balance. I have a brand new car which helps me with less stress over breaking down, yet the money issue again flares up.  LOL no such thing as no stress so we pick our stressers that are worth it I guess!

Point is we keep adjusting and finding what is right for us and leave the rest to God.  My Lord constantly helps me through situations and I have total faith He will carry me through the times my symptoms get out of control.

Love to all  and have a blessed day.
 

360

Isn't funny when your past circles around with your present?  I am now 53 years old and recently God has been bringing back people to me that were my friends years ago. Some maybe 5-10 years ago and some even 30years ago!

I am in awe of life and how in this past month I reconnected with my first love. No not for any "rekindling of flames" as he is very happily married to a wonderful wife and has a beautiful family miles and miles away. I will always love him for being my first love and I am so grateful he is loved and happy.

Through that reconnection though, I found one of our old friends too that hung out with us a lot and I hadn't seen him since we were in our 20's!  Turns out we live within a few miles of each other, have shared some similar life changes and now tomorrow I get to go out to the race track to watch him race! I gave up that part of my heart years ago and have oh so missed being at a track and smelling the awesome smell of nitro!

Yep, I'd say this is a 360! Yesterday he treated me to lunch and that lunch lasted five hours, I could of sat there another five easily. It was just like when I go back east and see my best friends from childhood, it is like nothing changed but our age. The comfort level is still there forever!

  Tomorrow will be a day of heaven on earth for me and I will enjoy every second I am out there at track.  God blesses us in so many ways , be ready!!!

Missed you old friend

I've missed you old friend.  That's how I feel as I sit here at my computer and contemplate what to write on my blog, my blog that I have ignored for far too long.  So much has happened in these months since I've written and I feel like I am sitting down with a old friend to catch up!

I have adjusted my schedule at work once again to consist of 3 day shifts 8am-8pm Friday thru Sunday and one night shift of 8pm-8am in the mid week.  I love the night shift for writing and research work while my clients are all asleep.  

I just bought a brand new car, not that I felt it was time financially and wanted to just now, but my old car that I had bought off a used car lot three years earlier and paid 30% interest on and I just paid off on February 28th, sure enough had engine trouble that would cost hundreds of dollars to repair. Hundreds of dollars I did not have and it was threatening to blow if not repaired asap and registration was coming due.  Rather than try to push it to point of blowing up, I figured maybe I could trade it in? 

I am now a proud owner of a brand new 2013 Chrysler 200 that I truly love.  Ahhh I so missed that fresh smell of a new car and the sense of security that it would not be breaking down and then the oh so wonderful feeling that if I could take the time , I could jump in my car right now and drive to a beach in Ca.!!!  That is the reason for the schedule change, I now NEED the eight hours over time each week so I can pay for this wonderful security.  

Blessings in the fact that my ex-husband actually co-signed for me so I could get this one at 5.3% interest!  I can not let him down and I oh so want to earn my good credit score back.  The plan is for me to pay for a year on this loan and then refinance in my own name...pray by then my credit score improves enough to get me 5.3%!!!  I can not afford any higher payments than I already have, hense the overtime hours and the night shift, with the night shift I can start developing my shop on Etsy and start my writing again to sell and earn more income to qualify better next year on own.I'm constantly looking for ways to make side money and afford those things needed in my life.

In midst of car breaking down and having to go on a long term commitment loan, I received a phone call from my doctor that they want me to go back to a third mammogram and ultra sound for third time in two months!  Praise God I know I have him and know all the miracles He has done in my life in past so I can rest assured He is in midst of all I am going through now with finances and health!  I don't even think there is anything wrong with my breast , as all the pain is in my lower abdomen where doctors found sizable cyst last year but no one has bothered to ultra sound them?  I have been "on a list" for the last 6 months at least to see a ob/gyn and a Neurologist for my seemingly MS symptoms.  Summer is coming and I feel overwhelmed with the heat already as here in Vegas it is hitting 80's daily.

Pray with me for God's intervention where I need it and God's wisdom on finding natural ways to ease my symptoms with eating as healthy as I can and keeping stress at a minimum.

Now enough about me my old friend, how have you been?!

Merry Christmas?

Seems so unfair to even say these words with the recent murders of so many innocent lives of those working and going to school in Sandy Hook Elementary school! 

I have cried so many tears over this past weekend and prayed so very hard for the parents and loved ones left behind.  I pray for answers, comfort and somehow a renewed strength for all.

When I pray I hear a voice within tell me not to be overwhelmed by the deep sadness (for that only makes us feel the lie of defeat that satan wants us to believe) but to look for the miracle to emerge from all this.  For God's word does tell us in Romans 8:28 "And we know that God causes everything to work together for the GOOD of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them".

Dear Santa,

All I want for Christmas is that which I seek with all my heart and soul:

To see the world pay closer attention to the mentally ill (majority of our homeless and our murder's are mentally ill)  have tighter laws on guns (not take away our rights to bear arms but maybe not semi automatics or anything other than those for hunting and self defense. Cherish our loved ones more each and every day.

Yes, Merry Christmas to everyone!!!

May you hold steady to your faith to fight for what is right in this world and preserve NOT the lies and sadness but seek that which is TRUTH.  Let's all be more aware of those fighting mental illness and find more ways to help them rather than ignoring them and lets protect our rights without putting our loved ones lives at risk and lets love one another more!!!

1 Corinthians 13:13
"Three things will last forever, faith , hope and love- and the greatest of these is love"

Lesson learned "There's Victory in living"

Years ago my best- friend's mother use to hide away in her dark house afraid to even walk to the mailbox at the end of their country driveway. I love this lady and in a way she has saved my life many times.  Whenever I would become depressed, I would think of her and remember how sad I felt that her fear had paralyzed her life.

She instilled in me a desire to really live and not just exist in my life.  I came close a few times, to just hiding away and becoming too afraid to live.  I held onto my teenage lesson to not let life's problems overwhelm me and to live each day to the fullest.  I feel God allowed me to see that side of existence so that I would not allow the trials of my own life to bring me down. When I lost my baby in 2002 , I almost forgot the lesson that God never gives you more than you can handle. Sometimes we forget the real meaning of that, is that we can not handle anything on our own but if we call on God, He and only He can get us through. All those years later, that wonderful lady's daughter (my Best- friend) reminded me to call out to God and he would bring me back to living that life that I fought so hard to LIVE! 

As I face my daily struggles now with physical limitations that no one can actually see,  I choose to not anticipate any diagnoses with fear but with that same desire to live to the fullest no matter what challenges come my way.

Thank you to the fine lady that taught me such a valued lesson in life and I want you to know that you are still in my heart and prayers.  I love you and I love your entire family for welcoming this scared child into your home. Thank you for loving me so many years ago even when you wouldn't allow anyone else into your home.  I love you!